Thank you Kreilly for being so honest to bring this up. I have been baptized in the HS. Yet, I have felt the same way and sometimes question if I have truly received the HS. The Bible tells us that the apostles had been imparted with various measures of the power of the HS during Jesus' life and ministry prior to Pentecost in order to carry out specific assignments. Yet, they too were frail and weak at times.