Experience God, as Blackabey invited many, has helped me realize many of the ideas that arrived in my thoughts were devinely inspired. Decerning what is my voice and that delivered by the HOly Spirit has been the challenge. It becomes clearer as I spend more time with the Shepherd and learn to be a humbled sheep, content with the green pastures he provides, the still waters and even the valley of the shadow of death. By knowing HiM and His ways, I can tell better and better what is His lead and not mine.
I've learned that if I question or debate the idea in my mind, that I ussually don't follow thru and then afterwards, I realize the purpose of the call. It has happened more with little things, as I learn from the little before he calls me to the big stuff.
Driving truck was a big call. The death of my daughter could have interupted it, but, I am here now and blessed because of it. Oh, I struggle with self here, and have had to give up the private control of single living to drive with the one the Lord had arranged for me to become wife with. So, this is a call I followed,
There are many others I have not, tho maybe not so big. I wanted them and hoped the opportunites saught to do oversees mission work, or teach English as a Second language would have been His call. They did not come with the ease and assurance that I expect from God's will being followed.
I have paid fines for missing exits, or DOT inspections I rationalized away from the still quie soul filling ideas that arrive within me and gotten lost when driving alone and been frustrated doing it my, so all these keep teaching me to listen and obey.